July was a tough month for us. It was officially 4 years
since we started trying to have a baby. July , 2015 was my due
date from the baby that we lost. Our baby would have been 1 years old this past
July. I began to get discouraged about God’s plan and timing. There were
definitely some ugly cry moments. Daniel tried to make me feel better
and continued to remind me that it could happen at any time.
Since our home study was approved, our agency had shown our
profile book to several birthmoms. Each time we were told that they were
considering us, we prayed fervently to be chosen. That this would be the baby
that the Lord had planned for us. It was heart-wrenching every time we got the
e-mail that they had chosen another family. I couldn’t help but wonder why they
didn’t like us?
Our adoption agency uses a wonderful attorney who also works
with birthmothers. We gave her permission to share our profile book as well. It
couldn’t hurt, right?! Towards the end of July, she contacted us about sharing
our profile with three birthmoms that she was currently working with. Our
adoption agency was also in the process of sharing our profile with a birthmom
due in October as well. We thought it couldn’t hurt showing our profile book to
4 birthmoms. The odds had to be good!
On July 15, it was a normal summer day. Daniel was at work
and I was home on summer break working on projects around the house. I heard my
phone chime saying that I had gotten an e-mail. I didn’t think much of it when
I glanced at my phone. It was an e-mail from our attorney. My initial thought
was that we weren’t picked again but went I read the message I think my heart
literally stopped! “The birthmother has chosen you and Daniel to be her adoptive
parents- looks like a family of twins!”
Instantly I started crying so hard and couldn't stop. No more sad tears but ones of pure joy! As I wept, I could only that the Lord for what He had planned. Twins!!!!
